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Dang it anyway, if our children don’t bring on the guilt, I don’t know what does?
This is my continuing series explaining how guilt showed up at different times in my life.
Continuing to teach rather than staying home with my children when they were babies was very hard for me. When my children were born, I really struggled with the fact that I continued to work fulltime as a teacher instead of staying home with my babies. I felt guilt for leaving them to go to work. I also felt like I was missing out on precious moments that can never be redone. This is still the one do-over I would do if I had the chance. And yet, when I have brought it up to my children, they tell me to let it go because they LOVED being at Mary’s (their nanny) and that they never felt deprived by my working. Again, they had “forgiven” me before I could forgive myself. I say “forgiven” because they didn’t even realize they had to forgive me. It was all me.
Poor Mary, she thought I didn’t think she was doing a good job with my kids. We had to talk and cry together about my feelings and the guilt I had. She was an amazing daycare provider for our children. Someone who we still have contact with today.
A seed planted 25 years ago.
This is where that seed of a dream to use my passion of educating others and helping others while working from home really took a hold. I didn’t know how it was going to happen or when, I just knew at some point in my lifetime it would.
I am setting myself up so that when I have grandchildren, I can take care of them while their parents work. This fills me up with so much gratitude for my career.
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