Archive

Daily Archives: April 20, 2021

Guilt and Fibromyalgia

In my last blogs I talked about guilt in my teens and when my children were babies. Later in life this is how guilt took a hold of me once more.

Fibromyalgia put my life in a tailspin.

As I have said before, Fibromyalgia put my life into a tailspin. I had so much guilt because I was unable to attend family events. And, even if I was at an event, I wasn’t really there – not 100%. I put everything I had to give into my job, and when I came home, I had nothing left to give to my family.

During the first few years of my illness, I took my kids to a lot of movies. It was one way I felt I could do SOMETHING for my children, but once the lights went out, I was out as well – sleeping the movie away because of chronic fatigue.

My daughter is the youngest of my children, and this time impacted her the most. She would have dreams where she would be calling my name and needing help. She could see me, but it was like she was seeing me through glass. I wasn’t coming to help her. When she told me about her dreams, my heart broke. She didn’t tell me to hurt me. We were being candid about that time. Now that she is older, we are able to discuss this time and why I was not present. Her older brain is able to understand it. We have worked hard on our relationship so that now she DOES know I am ALWAYS here for her!

Crazy thing about OolaBlockers is they want to wiggle their way back into your life.

She has forgiven me, and I have been able to forgive myself. That doesn’t mean every now and again the guilt doesn’t try to trickle back into my thoughts. That’s the crazy thing about OolaBlockers and learning to retrain your brain. Once you have combatted the blockers, they try to sneak in again to see if you forgot all the hard work you have done to retrain your way of thinking with OolaAccelerators and the use of affirmations. Whenever this happens, I start to say my affirmations again like a fervent prayer to let the OolaBlockers know they do NOT belong in my life anymore.

This is a perfect example showing that Oola is not a destination but a way of life. If you are ready to start this new way of life, leave me a comment below or schedule a 30-minute chat so you can start living the life you were meant to live!

Together, we are Positively Powerful!